Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Just when I think I've got it under control.
Just when I think things couldn't be better.
I'm reminded how little I can do on my own.

I'm overwhelmed.
I'm exhausted.

The "perfect" cirumstances can turn imperfect in a matter of seconds.

While we are preparing for the addition of our new little one, we are greatful for
the full lives we lead.

Wonderful lives, full of treasured relationships, hard work and
simple pleasures.

Just like a bountiful garden, I am aware of how
much is involved in maintaining a full life.

Friendships and family relationships must be nurtured,
a home must be tended, a marriage must be replenished,
A career requires attention and focus.

I've been running on empty lately, and I need my cup filled.
While I've been running around keeping everything in my life watered, fed and weeded,
I have been neglecting the source that supplies my needs.

It's been such a blessing to have had family here almost every weekend, filling our home with laughter and memories.  But I have been missing out on church, worship, and scripture.

I have been depending on my own strength to propel me through everything that life throws at me.

Let me tell ya, it just doesn't work.
As soon as I think I'm handling things, a confrontation at work occurs, and tears my walls down.
Exposing all of my weaknesses and insecurities for the world to see.

I am strong in many ways, but my heart is sensitive.  I can really fall to pieces.
The hormones don't help either.

When I want so badly to hold onto my blind hand, I have to remember who it is that can
see all the cards.

Right now I feel a bit like crying.  I have a lot on my plate right now, and it would be easy to crumble.

But then I look around me and realize how much I have to be grateful for.

I am thankful for this amazing life I am carrying inside me.
This darling boy growing every day just as my love for him grows.

I am thankful for a spouse that supports me in all that I do. 
That gives the best hugs, encouragement, and the bigger bowl of popcorn.

I am thankful for my family, that always feels close even when they are far away.

I am thankful for wonderful friends. 
Friends that give more than they take.  Friends that leave me feeling refreshed and replenished.
Friends that represent Christ to me in so many ways.

I am thankful for a father that isn't finished with me yet.
That won't leave me the way I am.
That will heal my hurts, as silly as they may be.

I am thankful that life goes on. It may be crazy, but I wouldn't miss the ride for anything.


  1. So, so true and so beautifully written! I hear what you are saying and it could be my life as well. What a wonderful reminder..thanks! Hugs to you and hope you have a relaxing day off tomorrow!

  2. ooh Chantel I feel like this post could of been written by me right now too. Feeling like we are on the same page overwhelemed and exhausted - except I am lacking a super sweet baby belly :)

    I'm so glad that all the things you listed which you are thankful for can bring you through this time - especially the love of our heavenly father.

    Sending all my love to you + prayers too.
    remember seasons don't last forever and they are put their to strengthen + build our character and faith - if only we just let them. And reading this I know you know this too :)

  3. Sweet friend, this was beautiful and oh so true...and I really hope that today you are sleeping in and then staying in your pajamas and just taking a day to rest and refresh, both body + soul...I love you.

  4. Chantel.....this was written so beautifully. I was happy to have met you and some of your family at Farm Chicks. Courtney has been so blessed by meeting so many amazing young women through blogging. You enrich each others lives and I am thankful for each one of you...Courtney's Mum